Secret Lover

While exploring Europe, there seemed to be a secret lover following me.  At first, my secret lover was distant. Then, as if my secret lover became desperate for me, it began to chase me.  I tried to run, but realized I was already running.  All at once, I stopped… frozen by the revelation and cold because I missed my secret lover.  In a moment, my secret lover’s love overtook me and I began to hear its whisper, feel its warmth, and smell its presence.  The secret was everywhere. I gazed into my secret’s eyes.  The pain of a thousand broken hearts filled me and the sorrow of yesterday weighed me.  Then in an instance, an eruption of soothing love entered the enumberable wounds of my soul and my burdens were lifted.  My secret lover breathed for me and my soul exhaled.  My secret lover caressed my face and bliss rested in my soul. My secret lover whisphered patiently into my ear, “I love you…I have always loved you… I will always love you.”

Do you know God as your secret lover?  Do you really know God.  As Adam knew Eve.  I observed how affectionate the Europeans are.  PDA is not an elecronic organizer to them.  Everywhere I went, couples were swapping DNA. 

European PDA

While observing a passionate couple, the Holy Spirit whispered, “Are you passionate about Me?  Do you offer Me a PDA (public display of affection)? Do you intimately love Me?  I was convicted, guilty as charged.  During my dark period (see previous posts), I had lost my intimacy with God. 

Lovers can be close, but feel distant

My prayers were about me and not Him.  I lost the desire to know Him intimately.  The reading of His word became a religious academic activity.  In my marriage to God, we had stopped having sex!  God was willing, but I had made my quiet time with Him (when I gave Him quiet time) a boring-religious-vain activity.  There was no intimacy! 

Real Intimacy

I was determined to rekindle my relationship with God.  I planned two days of dates with God in Paris.  I took Him to parks, museums, a waterfall, the Eifel tower, and a few of ther sites.  I quieted my soul and reconnected with Him.  His word became living again and it tasted so sweet.  His secret presence was obvious.   I became so full of love.  We climaxed and He released  the most pleasant peace you could ever imagine.  It was if I had breathed for the first time.

The first step to coming out of darkness is to fall in love with the Secret Lover again.   Psalm 25:14 says the secret of God is with them that fear Him. Psalm 31:20 speaks of the secret of His presence.  Psalm 91 mentions God’s secret place.  God is sexy.  I want to bring sexy back to those intimacy starved souls.  Where my Jesus freaks at?!  Come out of hiding.  Break out your scented candles.  Splash on some annointing oil.  Knock the dust off of your picnic blanket.  Read some Song of Solomon. I dare you to make love to God.   Make love to Him in new places.  Try outside, on an airplane (the Holy mile high club), in the bathroom at work or school, at a restuarant…etc.  Add some spice to your relationship (Just thinking about this puts me in the mood for some God lovin’.).

Where you go in life is determined by the intimate moments that you share with God, your Secret Lover.  The person whom you are most intimate with is the same person you will become most like.  Who’s your secret lover?  God is always yearning to be your Secret Lover.  Now, go make love with Him. 

Keep fighting for your dream!